It finally rained. I need more hours in the day.. im working in overdrive at my job…taking on much more than before. No one said being a nurse was going to be easy. One of my patients passed this week, I had to call their family and tell them. No one said it would be this hard. Nursing. they never taught us how to deal with grieving, and they never taught us self care. 

This week be was fun. I liked the drinking part better than the sportsball part.

Happy 7 year to us! This was such a great night, we could finally forget about all the work and school b.s. Also he got me a claddagh promise ring!!

the heart = love

the hands = friendship

the crown = loyalty

it’s engraved too, love it so much. We went out to our favorite sushi spot, it was a blast.

random rant and other things

like i mentioned before, i’m picking up more patients this week as a favor to another nurse who is sick, what this ultimately means is i’m working overload, more face-to-face patient care, more paper work/charting, and more responsibility. which is stressful. however, it also means getting paid more, learning more, and more experience.. which are all positive things.

i am trying to be positive about my life, who i am, and what i am doing, and lately i have been succeeding. what bums me out/brings me down, are the expectations others have of me/for me.  like i am not doing “ENOUGH” 

I found this quote which is helping me cope with anxiety: “Being in control of your life and having realistic expectations about your day-to-day challenges are the keys to stress management, which is perhaps the most important ingredient to living a happy, healthy and rewarding life.”

i feel like i am constantly compromising in my life to try to live up to people’s expectations because i don’t want to disappoint them. 

it’s just tough because i am doing so much, ive got praise from my patients, got a raise from my boss… and i feel like i’m doing good.. until i have a talk with my parents. this all really stems from my parents.. my parents just want more More MORE. be better, be the BEST. 

and i’m just trying to do my best, i just want it to be enough, at least for now!